Day 12 and 13 -

Day 12 - 

Gratitude - 
Liam - what a sweet little boy. Spending the day with him yesterday was a treat. Arctic Circle - our go-to place to dine with grandchildren; they think it's such a treat to eat here. Evening - again a treat to end the day with a tired grateful heart. 

Journal - 
Adult children = grandchildren, at least in my case. I thoroughly enjoy watching them build their lives. Tyler and Jenna are different in each other in so many ways, but when they're together, they are my children, and I get to have just a short glimpse into the past when they were children living at home. Beauty. 

Exercise - 
Chasing with grandchildren while nursing a cold. 

Meditate - 
Not a moment yesterday. 
Random Act - 
Scott and I (well, I did, then I told Scott) volunteered to help with Tyler and Meili's 5 on Saturday. A 7:30am gymnastics meet north of SLC and a noon gymnastics meet in Springville, meant for lots of logistic issues. We had Liam; child #4, we don't get much of him alone. He is a cutie - lighter skin, the most amazing hazel eyes, a tender personality with a touch of his father's wit. He's a gentle soul, calm, wanders, but is also fine stuck next to Scott or me. Fun day, and a great way to serve. 


Day 13 - 

Gratitude - 
Cough syrup and tissue and a recliner. 

Journal - 
I went to bed last night with a crazy cough (well, I've had it for a few days, but it is much worse) and congestion. By midnight I was wired from taking cough syrup with a decongestant and hacking a lung. So I semi-slept on one of our recliners in the office. Pre-cancer I just took being sick in stride. Post-cancer, I get a little scared - will I ever get better, will I recover and be healthy, what if I don't, are just a few of my thoughts. And I don't like being down - I think I've had enough sickness to last a lifetime, so why would a little sinus/lung crap get me down? But it does, and I worry. 

Exercise - 
Kegals and stomach! All day yesterday, all day today! 

Meditate - 
Yeah, as a matter of fact. In the wee morning hours, when coughing wakes me, I lay and think, and try not to think, and I meditate on the here and now, and try not to wander.
Random Act - 
I have tried really hard today to not whine and not request. Kind of an odd random act - but being sick puts me in a needy whiny mode, and I've tried not to go there today.