Motivation to Do - Processing is Tuff -

I came upon this thought today -
"Doing things we don't want to do, or that scare us, creates flow in our lives and allows us to grow."

I wonder - does this mean tasks such as laundry and leg shaving; crucial conversations such as saying "no" or being assertive; self-care - exercise, planning meals ahead of time; creating business plans and presenting them to corporate, or simply moving forward or perhaps simply being?

Or is it as basic as having that one thing in our lives that never makes it to our list because it's too scary to even mention?

I'm a doer; I do not like having "to do's" hanging around me; I don't like having things undone. And yet I'm wondering if this really means, at least for me - the major "thing" I don't do is take the time to stop and reflect. That's what I put off doing; I put off processing. I've certainly felt that these past 2 months as I reached out for this job, was rejected, and then just moving on - I did what scared me, I felt discounted, and honestly, there is no flow to grow.

When I had children at home, and somehow had time to create, I'd finish a project, hang it up, put it on a shelf, and move on to the next task at hand. And one day I realized I didn't take the time to appreciate my own handiwork. I put the kids' art work on display, applauded my husband for a job well-done, but didn't glory in my own works. So I made a plan to put my piece in a spot where I would see it for several days before placing it in its designated home. This became my time to do something that really did scare me - acknowledge myself.

These days, my crafts are more emotional than physical. I read a book, put it up, open another. I finish a task, fix dinner. I exercise, hop in the shower. I'm finding I don't take the time to feel, to savor, to enjoy. If I want to really grow, it has to include processing time. It's a scary unknown place for me to go, yet I do want to grow. I hate this stuck - and somehow, this event, which really should be in the past, keeps coming forward, and I keep being reminded that I "lost." And I need to process what has happened - that's the doing what scares me, so that I can move forward.

That's what I've been avoiding - plus shaving my legs!