Thursday, November 29, 2018

Savoring the Season -



Savoring –

While normally associated with food, savoring can involve all of our senses, giving us a wider sense of appreciation for our surroundings. Savoring requires us to be present – to allow ourselves the “luxury” of anticipating, appreciating, reminiscing, and sharing.

We can savor an experience through:

1.      Anticipation – looking forward.
2.      Appreciation – staying in the present.
3.      Reminiscing – looking in the past.
4.      Sharing – synergistic energy.

With all of these forms, we can engage the senses. What does your mind’s eye see? What smells do you enjoy? What sounds do you remember? What textures delight you? Who do you want to talk with, or have as your companion in a moment/event?

Savoring is a great form of mindfulness:

1.      Mealtime can be quick or savory! Take the time to feel the utensil in your hand, the sound of ice in your glass, the smell of fresh cooking. And the taste – what are your taste buds saying to you?
2.      Music! What memories are conjured? Is there specific music for times of the day or moods or audience?
3.      Memories! Do you re-read notes, thumb through photos, cook particular food items because of fond memories?
4.      Record these moments! Your phone is a powerful communication device! Whether it’s a text, a call, a photo, or an image capture – taking a picture, writing down a thought (I use “Notes” on my phone) are a way of making that time stand still.
5.      And then don’t forget to share – even if you’re sharing with yourself. Reread those texts, look at your pictures as you download them onto your computer, eat a meal with a friend – or at least share a dessert with someone, go to a concert with a friend.
6.      Lastly – be still. Take time to listen to the birds, sip that cup of coffee or tea, be present for only a moment, and your world will become brighter and lighter.

10 tips for Savoring the holidays:

1.      Enjoy the textures of the season.
2.      Do something for yourself.
3.      Do something for someone else.
4.      Make a Christmas treat – engage all of your senses.
5.      As you drive, take the time to look at Christmas decorations.
6.      Sit, close your eyes, and enjoy one entire Christmas song.
7.      Write a note of gratitude to one person.
8.      Engage in a Christmas activity.
9.      Wrap a gift and think positive thoughts about the person who will be the recipient.
10.   Burn a candle, simmer some cinnamon and oranges, enjoy the scents of the season.

Monday, November 26, 2018

Healing -

I spoke with 2 women today - one still healing from the effects of breast cancer and treatments, 7 years down the road. And, another woman whose cancer has reoccurred - she was first diagnosed in 1982, and it has been in remission until about a month ago and now it has metastasized. Cancer sucks, and healing is an ongoing project. Something I remind myself of every morning at 3:30am when anxiety and sleeplessness kick in and again every single time I walk into a patient visit.


Tuesday, November 20, 2018

CBD, THC, Hemp, Marijuana - Where I Stand -

YES - I'm beginning this is with a loud YES, I am in support of medical marijuana, which includes Hemp, Marijuana, and the derivatives extracted from these plants, namely CBD and THC.

I didn't take when I had cancer, but I wish it had been available; I would have gladly welcomed CBD into my medical tool box. With that said, CBD oil has a place in my tool box now - sleeplessness, anxiety, and nerve pain are all a part of my daily repertoire, and I am grateful for these plants and their medicinal value.

Below is a short tutorial I have created based on hours of research - which includes medical, pharmaceutical, popular, and valued patient resources. I think it's pretty basic and inclusive. As well as education, I have listed reading and accessing resources. 

(My disclaimer - this is information I have gleaned, and I am not liable for information you glean from this or for the resources I have chosen to list that you may choose to access in any way.) 

CBD Fact Sheet
As legal use of marijuana grows, it is important to understand the medical benefits and medicinal qualities of marijuana, particularly the difference between CBD (cannabidiol) and THC (tetrahydrocannabinol). These are 2 compounds found in marijuana.

CBD comes from primarily the hemp plant. THC comes from marijuana. THC is the psychoactive compound that provides the “high.” Both interact with the body’s own endocannabinoid system, with different effects. However, they both have the exact same chemical structure, although their arrangement means they each have a different impact on the body, particularly with the neurotransmitters in the brain (responsible for transmitting messages between brain and body cells). With that said, below is a simple graph explaining CBD and THC.

CBD                                                                                                        THC
Hemp (Can produce a minute amount of THC), no more than 0.3% THC
Marijuana (Average strain has 15% THC; although marijuana sold on the street is typically 2-5%)
Non-psychoactive (No High)
Psychoactive (High)
Suppresses
Enhances
Legal in all states
Legal in 29 states + DC for medical, 9+ DC for personal use
Typical ratio is 10 parts CBD
To 1 part THC
Used for: seizures, inflammation, pain, nausea, migraines, depression, anxiety (does not increase appetite)
Used for: pain, muscle spasms (not seizures), insomnia, appetite enhancement, nausea, anxiety
Available in: gels, gummies, oils, supplements, vap
Available in: edibles, tinctures, capsules, oils, “weed”
Reactions: Zero to drug-to-drug interactions with medications
Reactions: Increased heart rate, coordination, dry mouth, red eyes, slow motor abilities, memory loss. Also increases risk of psychiatric disorders.
Stored in the body’s fat; can show on a drug test for several days or weeks after use.
Stored in the body’s fat; can show on a drug test for several days or weeks after use.
Considered safe when used properly
Considered safe when used properly

Buying CBD and THC:
Anyone can purchase hemp-derived CBD products, yet marijuana-derived CBD and THC products can only be purchased from a dispensary (online or shop). Whether hemp or marijuana based, CBD is CBD is CBD. Just a simple web-search for “CBD to purchase” brings up more than 45 million results. So, be careful. The best way to find credible sources is to glean information from friends and family, and of course, your healthcare provider. Make sure your healthcare provider knows you are using/interested in CBD.

In order to get the correct compound for your needs, you will need to understand the strength and concentration of the product as well as other additives (terpenes: https://greencamp.com/terpenes, essences, oils) to the compound. Oils, edibles, topicals, and e-vap are the most popular forms of CBD compounds.

Some things to be aware of when looking for a product are:
1.       Marketing of Rick Simpson Oil (RSO). This oil cannot be purchased. It can be made at home, growing a particular strain of cannabis and following a rigorous step-by-step process (more about RSO can be found on Simpson’s YouTube documentary, “Run From the Cure”). Rick Simpson does not sell his product, and Simpson oil are not associated with any organization that sells “Rick Simpson Oil.”
2.       Ratio of CBD to THC, and CBD to a base product, whether oil or sugar or ethanol, and if topical, is there an emulsifier added.
3.       There are many folks getting on the band-wagon of marketing and selling CBD products. Do your research. Pricing is not always an indication of quality.

Sources for further education:
Cannabinoid Clinical, cannabinoidclinical.com
National Cancer Institute, cancer.gov, “Cannabis and Cannabinoids”
Leafly.com
CBD Reviews, ravereviews.org, “Best CBD Oil”
Differences between CBD and THC, echoconnection.org
Primer on CBD: Projectcbd.org
Primer on CBD/Hemp: zatural.com
Primer on Marijuana: honestmarijuana.com
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ygtX2nyexo – David Casarett TED Talk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3bZb10ZxpBk The Inside Story of Cannabidiol – What are the Benefits of CBD?

Products and resources we would recommend, if we could:
Nuleafnaturals.com
Canna Trading Company, cannatrading.co
Foria Wellness, foriawellness.com
Charlotte’s Web (oldest dispensary in Colorado; expensive, potent, produced by the Stanley Brothers) cwhemp.com, stanleybrothers.co
https://www.purecbdvapors.com – variety of products

Gummies – 10mg CBD with .57 THC – Pioneer Squares; Craft Elixirs; http://craftelixirs.com/products.html#edibles  Purchase in person in WA
                Liberty Lixir – 1 oz. High CBD Tincture; 1 pump is 2.2 grams   https://libertylotion.com/
                Revive –  https://kannaway.com/revve-p-m-restore-and-recharge/
                http://greenhorizen.com/
                Alammi Tobacco Shop, PG, UT (801-796-8888) – variety of products


Monday, November 19, 2018

All Is Safely Gathered In -

This fall has definitely been a time of gathering for me. I frantically filled my freezer and all of my pint and quart jars with the goods from my garden and the farmer's market - even to the point of pickling carrots! This must be the old school (or my Idaho/pioneer heritage) me that feels the need to make sure I have done all I can, and used all I have available, to make sure we are prepared for the winter. I am fulfilled by doing so - my domesticity is appeased and having a full larder/cellar/pantry gives me peace - although the preparation can be angst-filled. 

In preparing I am now comforted and full of thanks. Thankful for a garden that produced, a husband who cared for the garden, water to care for the "crops," for time to preserve, for the ability to preserve - and make it edible; grateful for space to store as well as the view of being able to cautiously open my freezer and have a variety of good to choose from - fruits from my own labors. 

Summer is a time for romping in the woods while autumn is the time to gather the wood - and as much as I love sun and romping, I love settling and find contentment in the calm, or at least resting for a season. 

Winter is not my favorite season, yet autumn gives the "job well done" sign. 

And I am filled with gratitude for being provided and being able to provide. I am grateful for the time to rest and enjoy these fruits - there are very few times in my life when I take/have the chance/opportunity to see my handiwork for longer than a moment or two. Sitting down for a dinner last night of butternut squash, beets, roasted potatoes and carrots, fresh baked bread (from the bread machine), and fried apples, with autumn jazz playing, and a warm clean home, are confirmatiosn of my work and my blessings.

Now waiting for that winter storm - 



  1. 1. Come, ye thankful people, come;
    Raise the song of harvest home.
    All is safely gathered in
    Ere the winter storms begin.
    God, our Maker, doth provide
    For our wants to be supplied.
    Come to God's own temple, come;
    Raise the song of harvest home.
  2. 2. All the world is God's own field,
    Fruit unto his praise to yield,
    Wheat and tares together sown,
    Unto joy or sorrow grown.
    First the blade, and then the ear,
    Then the full corn shall appear.
    Lord of harvest, grant that we
    Wholesome grain and pure may be.
  3. Text: Henry Alford, 1810-1871
    Music: George J. Elvey, 1816-1893

Sunday, November 11, 2018

Veteran's Day - and Fathers -

Scott's oldest daughter has a son who is serving a 2-year LDS Mission in Northern California. I do my best to write him weekly; which means I've probably written 50 letters in the past 55 weeks. I don't know this grandson well, and my goal is for us to know each other just a little better when he returns home to Florida next July.

Today I wrote about his great-grandfathers, both who served in the military. I love these men; I honor them, and my nearly-son Cortney, for their service.


I’m writing on 11/11 – do you know the importance of this date? Today, 100 years ago, WWI ended. So tomorrow, we celebrate Armistice Day. While it’s a much bigger celebration and holiday in England and Germany, it is a day to honor veterans of all wars.

Did you know your great-grandpa Weaver served in WWII as a member of the Army. He was a driver for the company commanders; when a commander found out how educated he was, the officer made Grandpa his personal driver; this probably kept Grandpa from being in some pretty unsafe areas. Grandpa served in the Philippines and in Japan. My father, Clyde Walker, served in the Korean War. He had been running the family café and motel. His leaving was tough on the family, but it was important for him to serve. He was a chef on a munitions ship during the war. He spent time on the water and in Japan. Interestingly, he helped create an LDS branch for the military in Japan, and he stayed in touch with his Navy buddies all of his life. Those connections these men made were strong bonds. Even when my father died, some of his friends and their wives came to his viewing.

Neither Grandpa served an LDS mission, yet they served their country, and then both, upon retirement served missions. Gpa and Gma Weaver in Nauvoo (where Gpa shared his love for painting and drawing), and Gpa and Gma Walker in Hawaii (where at BYU-H Gpa ran the catering and cafeteria) and the Philippines.

We live in a beautiful world – I am so grateful for Heavenly Parents who created a world that was not only functional, but also beautiful. Both grandfathers loved this world, and loved their country. They served because of this love. They remained patriotic – remembering their time served and flying the flag whenever they could. Just a few months before my father died, my nephew, Dakota, had the opportunity to go through my father’s Navy trunk, filled with his Navy gear and mementos from the time he was in Japan. Dakota could fit into my father’s Navy uniform! It was a treat for us (and my dad) to see him in that outfit and to again hear stories from my father. Sadly, Great-Gpa Weaver didn’t talk about his time in WWII. G-Gpa Weaver said once that he wasn’t made an officer because he was “shipped out” just before going to officer school. I wonder how his life would have been different if he hadn’t had an education – would he have served on the front lines? And my father, after leaving the Navy, went on to a Chef’s school in California, where he learned the business side of running a restaurant, and taking that with his cooking abilities, went home to Idaho to open three other restaurants. All because of his time served and the GI Bill that paid for his education.

Well, that’s enough family history for today. I think it’s pretty cool that two men, living across the street from each other for 35 years, both served proudly. They both loved beauty, created art, cherished their families, and were staunch believers in democracy – the freedom to make choices and the responsibility to keep their country, and families, safe.




Tuesday, November 6, 2018

Gabapentin - Neuropathy - Chemotherapy -

I pinched a butt-load of nerves from my left shoulder and neck down to my left hand - knuckles to finger-tips. And I hurt. I've had more than a month of nerve pain, and it has worn me down. I took Gabapentin for about 3 weeks, and I quit about a week ago. But here's what I learned while taking this medication often used for nerve pain, anxiety and depression, and sleep.

I realized I still had neuropathy, from chemo and injuries. The first few days on the medication were amazing - I didn't hurt, anywhere. My feet didn't hurt, my toes were not in fire, the tip of my tongue was not tingly, and my left hip was not shooting deep pains into my back.

I learned how sensitive I am to medication. While this helped with my nerve pain and gave me some rest, I was dizzy all the time; I felt like my head was filled with fog; I couldn't think clearly; anxiety was making me jittery, scared, and angry, and interestingly, what I thought was allergies or the beginning of a cold, because of non-stop sneezing, was a side-effect of the drug!

And so I got off, even taking a minute dose (200mg), I knew I needed to stop, immediately. Weaning off, even after only a few weeks of use, took me nearly a week - medication can have long-term side-effects. Yet since being off, those aches that I took the drug for are back, and the aches that I didn't know were aches, have not returned. Hallelujah!

My head is clear, I've calmed down, and I'm back to seeing a kind young earnest chiropractor - who is caring for my left side, one joint at a time. He's reset a dislocated shoulder (has been this way for 5.5 years, go figure), a dislocated wrist (same accident - crashing on my bike), and is trying to teach my body to not contract when there's nerve pain, but to just breathe through it and let it go. Some day that pain will be gone as well!

Saturday, November 3, 2018

Letting Go -


This article from Purpose Fairy speaks to me these days. A month away from blogging (and other stuff) has given me time for some deep contemplation.

I'm letting go of a lot right now, emotionally, physically, materialistically, culturally. And it's hard work and it's freeing, and it's painful, and I'm hoping to finally find the peace I've been striving for - for years.

I'm a spiritual soul; I'm an introvert; I'm a thinker; and over and over again I realize just how much I need calm and quiet - inner and outer "hush."

1. Letting go is an inner journey.
2. Letting go feels painful.
3. Letting go brings up a lot of resistance.
4. Letting go feels lonely at times.
5. Letting go removes the veil of forgetfulness.
6. Letting go reveals the oneness of things.
7. Letting go is liberating.
8. Letting go shines light on things.
9. Letting go purifies your soul of attachments.
10. Letting go grounds you.
11. Letting go helps you to surrender.
12. Letting go helps quiet your mind.
13. Letting go reveals your true self to yourself.
14. Letting go opens your heart to true love.
15. Letting go helps you return home.