God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Scott and I watched a movie on Sunday evening. One of the lines in the show was a rework of the Serenity Prayer.
"And the courage to change the things I cannot accept."
Oh yeah - it really does take courage to make changes. Acceptance is hard enough, but courage to change what is not acceptable - that's where I'm operating these days.
Be courageous - stay on the path that I know is the correct path and "be ye unafraid" of changing.
Change usually means action, but for me, change needs to be that state of "being" rather than "doing." The "change the things I can't accept" means I don't like the anxiety, crazy, stress-ridden life I'm leading right now (sometimes I feel like there's so much make-up work to do, catching up from 2 years of being AWOL). I have myself back in the frantic life I led years ago, and I don't like this. The courage for me then is saying, "stop," I can change this way of doing life - I don't have to live at this pace, I do not have to accept this way of life, damn it!
So today, today, I've turned down 2 jobs, turned down 2 volunteer roles, and I'm refocusing. I'm going to make time to meditate, weed my garden, get my work done, and enjoy my chaplain class. That's it, and this is change, and change takes courage.