June 30 was my last day of employment with LearningU. I've been there for 5 years, since its birth. When I crashed on my bike a month ago, I realized I was not healing, not being, not giving my body a chance to rest and recover. So, I asked to be laid off (I'm over HR and the Assistant to the President, so I basically RIF'd myself).
I've had 2 weeks of just being, and oh boy, I have needed this time, and I know I need more. With a huge cut in pay (unemployment is a drop in the bucket), Scott and I are working at being frugal. And I have no angst about where we are.
"When we come full circle there is the feeling that we have come to a
familiar place, but we are somehow different." In many ways I'm exactly
where I was last year at this time, yet in every way I am a different
person than I was last July 12. And I don't want to "go back," I am
ready to move forward - this circle is complete, now it's time to move
on down the road.
I'm not sure where I'm headed, but I've decided I won't worry myself about employment for a couple of months, and I think we'll be fine, financially, until January. However, easier said than done - if you had a life-changing experience, what would you do with it? The promptings I've been getting are - "Heal first, Help others heal." And, interestingly, "The world you have lived in no longer serves you." Yes, those exact words, I remember the place - 3 weeks ago; both phrases came to me. I'm contemplating on them now.
So here are a few thoughts that have helped me this past month as I'm reevaluating my place in this universe and reassessing where/who I want to be -
"Learning to let go should be learned before learning to get. Life should be touched, not strangled. You've got to relax, let it happen times, and let others move forward with it."
"If you can't figure out your purpose, figure out your passion. For your passion will lead you to your purpose."
T. D. Jakes
"Be fearless. Have the courage to take risks. Go where there are no guarantees. Get out of your comfort zone even if it means being uncomfortable. The road less traveled is sometimes fraught with barricades bumps and uncharted terrain. But it is on that road where your character is truly tested. And have the courage to accept that you're not perfect, nothing is, and no one is - and that's OK."
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