Slow Down -

I have a wise nephew. He is the father of 2 children, married, and on his way to law school. I've always been impressed with his quiet and humble personality. He is serious, intense, calm, and a deep thinker. He loves nature, loves his family, and loves his God. He posted this thought today, and I'm borrowing it here. It comes from the Book of Mormon, Isaiah Chapter 40: 

28 ¶Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding.
29 He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength.
30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall:
31 But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

I've been going through a faith crisis for a better part of my adult life. I find a moment of peace and comfort, and then I begin questioning, again, and I am back wondering about my theological beliefs and how they coincide with my own personal beliefs, and even more, wondering where I fit in this wacky Utah County culture. 

However -  after the health crisis I've been going through these past 20 months, and learning what I have about my body, mind, and spirit being totally in-synch, I've been pondering how my faith crisis could possibly be affecting my health. And, honestly - yeah, there's a connection. I can't put my finger on it, but listening to my heart these days tells me that I need to not only take a break from my full-time job, I also need to take a break from my faith angst, and heal, heal all of me, in due time. I need to lean on Isaiah 40:31 - I want to wait, listen, and allow this promise to operate in my life. Have faith in the process, have hope in the promise, have love for myself -