F Cancer #21 & 22 - Reflection

#21, 22 - Reflection

Some days I look into the pond and even with the ripples in the clear water I see myself, and I see myself clearly.
Some days I look into the pond and the past is behind me, and I see my shadow, and I grieve.
Some days I look into the pond and it's muddy and covered with autumnal leaves, and I wonder how on earth I'll ever be able to see myself in the murky waters.
Some days I look into the pond and the waves are too enormous for my gaze to go on.
Some days I daresn't even look into the pond for fear of what I will see -
Some days I daresn't look into the pond for fear of who I have become.