Wednesday, October 30, 2019

F Cancer #29 and 30 - Learning -

#29 and 30 - Learning

Way back, I was told that cancer would be my teacher long after treatments ended. And that has been so true. While I won't hang all of my growth and learning on the hat of cancer, I think my awareness is what it is because of my cancer, my career, and my daily activities. It's hard to leave cancer when seeing it on a daily basis.

In fact, a reason I hate Pinktober is because I see cancer on a daily basis. I don't need to be hyper-aware, hyper-alerted to cancer - FCancer!

And yet - this month I've been super introspective, and what I've learned about myself this month is:


  • I am not perfect
  • I am whole
  • I carry my stressers internally, and they definitely have physical manifestations. 
    • Some of these include: 
      • Pinktober
      • Chaplain bruhaha from this past year
        • Unanswerable questions
        • Hard brain work and team work still didn't warrant a "yes."
        • What does "moving forward" look like. 
      • Patients
        • Do you take your work home with you? Was a question on the employee health assessment. Yup - particularly at 3am. 
      • Retirement from UVU - who woulda thunk I'd be in withdrawal mode.
        • A sense of urgency do use that retirement time wisely.
      • My feet and leg 
        • I have a boot on the troublesome leg, and I'm healing!!!
      • Airbnb, while lovely is a lot of work. 
        • Blocked Nov and Dec - 
      • Commitment to Exercise
        • Recommitted  - so many benefits
      • Mom
        • Serving her is a blessing
      • Social Media
        • Blogging is great, Instagram and Facebook are not. 
      • I am weary
        • And I'm ready to not be - what does that look like?
        • I freakin' need my sleep, and I need to figure this out. 
      • Time to visit the therapist I saw during my cancer journey. 
        • Chaplains need chaplains. 
  • My life is amazing
    • Husband
    • Career
    • Family
    • Health
    • Home
  • I must make time to create - this gives me time to think and stew and move on. 
    • Sew
    • Quilt
    • Projects

I'm learning . . . 


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