I despise the anxiety that leaped into my life with my cancer diagnosis, and the anxiety that lingers - now with issues unrelated to cancer, yet regardless, is still a part of my life.
Take Sunday night - in bed, trying to sleep with a sinus infection, and Bam, heart palpitations, hard time breathing, sweating, claustrophobia, and a deep fear - related to . . . I have no idea! Nearly back to sleep after breathing through this, and Bam, again, the same thing. By this time I'm wide-awake, it's 4am, and sleep is no longer an option.
So I try to work through the anxiety - take it from the present and work back - ok, long day ahead of me, time with colleagues I haven't seen for a couple of years, a need to give some explanations and answer questions, no sleep, sinus cold. Yet I'm warm, cuddled up to a loving body, I've had a great day, nothing unusual happening or going to happen, overall - life is good.
Sometimes anxiety can't be explained, I guess! And so it deserves 2 spots on my F Cancer blogging spot this month.
At one time defined, these days no reason to, and I guess, no reason not to!
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