Monday, September 10, 2012

Facing -



I'm not one to run away - I am not one to live in fear - I will walk away from anger, hurt, betrayal, poison, but I prefer negotiating, talking things through, working things out, coming to some sort of compromise. I believe in education, intuition, and inspiration. 

Yet I'm not really a risk-taker, unless a risk is defined as driving down a road without a map, or pushing myself at the gym. I won't put my physical self in any place that might be risky - I don't like heights, I'm not a great swimmer, I'm probably not going to sky dive anytime soon. I like intellectual risks though - what a rush it is to learn, to discover, to know I can learn - bring it on! 

I prefer "looking forward to," over "surprise." I love adventure, but I want to know a little about what I am embarking on. Over our back door we have the phrase, "Go out for adventure, come home for love."  I like planning, that's part of the adventure, part of the journey - it's like receiving a gift card for Christmas, and then using it, 2 gifts for the price of 1! 

And here stands cancer.  A risk, a surprise, and certainly an adventure. However - fear, get thee away. I will learn what I can, listen to my own body, and pray for inspiration - it is already arriving. 

What I've learned this past week:
1. Acknowledge it - Breast Cancer
2. Don't blame - it's not heredity, not second hand smoke, not diet. It just is. Why me? Why not me.
3. Listen to myself - I was told "something" was coming my way, here it is.
4. Time - a dear friend of mine taught me, "Give it time, the answer will manifest itself." Reminds me of the tune, "You Can't Hurry Love." Time is of the essence, but all I have is time.
5. Get out of my comfort zone - My comfort zone is this, do, do, do, busy, help, seek, find, do, do, do. Now I will learn to be still - again. 

PS - Boob Day Party was wonderful - a few pics below. 

2 comments:

  1. You are strong, intelligent, beautiful and just plain awesome Ronda! They say that attitude is everything and you have the right attitude to take this head on and leave it in the past my friend! Stay strong, stay focused...just be you! Lots of good mojo coming your way!

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  2. I'm so sorry you have to go through this trial. But it sounds like you're the right woman with the right stuff to beat it! You and your family will be in my prayers. Your family needs you and i hope that helps you to stay strong and get through this.

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