Friday, September 21, 2012


I need to sleep - The last few nights have been horrible. I wake up in pain, and I can't go back asleep. I am trying to not fight this, surrender to win, but I have found 2 books nearby that are guaranteed to bring on sleep (that and some sleep aids); is it OK if they're religious texts? 

Crying in the shower - I don't have to worry about makeup running, being heard, looking odd. Hot water running down my back, salty tears running down my face. This morning it was a phrase from an LDS hymn that tipped me off, "The dove of peace sings in my heart, The flowers of grace appear." Hymns have brought me much peace over the years, today, the peace came in tears.

No words - My sister, Vicki, called this morning, after the tears, to see how I was doing. I told her I didn't know - and I didn't think I could had the words to express how I was feeling. She said, "No words then, no words." I don't always need to have words to express myself. Please don't think you need to have words to talk with me. Thoughts, prayers, a hand, a hug are words enough.

"I'm in a meeting" - So happy I work from home. Yet this often brings guests to my door during work hours. Today I used this phrase twice, honestly. Tomorrow - I may use the phrase again, just because I need a nap.

Remodeling - Changing our bed and teeny tiny bedroom to fit the future, whatever that is. Out with the old, in with the new. I like change, but the past 2 1/2 weeks have been enough. I want comfortable now.

1 comment:

  1. You are in my thoughts and prayers, and my arms are too short to reach, but I offer hugs from afar.